Monday, November 30, 2009;11:35 PM
A story
I was once programmed to not feel anything, to just obey any order given to me by my creator. But then it dawned on him that even though i carried out his orders, there were unnecessary risks involved. I could not get too close to the targets, i was too cold, too stiff. I could not feel anything, not pleasure, not pain, not anything.
So he changed my programmings, enabling me to feel emotion of all sorts: envy, hate, anger, loneliness, pain, tiredness. But mostly guilt. Live crushing, burdening guilt after killing, torturing people. People that were innocent in my and his world.
But i could never stop killing.
Never.
I was made for it. What could a humanoid do except killing?
So i killed, and killed, and killed, until my arms were soaking wet with the most precious thing a human needed. Blood. Even then, even with the guilt crushing me, the mental exhastion drowning me, I continued foward. I did not look back.
Until that day. The day i broke.
I stood in front of the baby, with his mother holding onto him with every dying breath. The one that i stole from her. It didn't matter that i was ordered to, i killed, and would do so again. Or so i thought when i looked into the baby's eyes. When i was being looked at with such naked innocence, never mind his mother's blood was spattered across his face.
He looked at me, and smiled.
Smiled! For god's sake.
And then i knew what i should have done years ago.
I knew my creator would die.
Like many others like him.
And, finally, me.
-Inspiration from Savour Me Slowly, by Gena Showalter
Labels: story
Thursday, November 26, 2009;6:34 AM
Bras Basah Complex
Today's my lucky day! I wandered to Bras Basah Complex, and what i saw blew my mind off!
It was a book sale!!!!!! Wo zuo kan, you kan, shang kan, xia kan~ , books, books, books, were everywhere!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WEee~
It was a book sale!!!!!! Wo zuo kan, you kan, shang kan, xia kan~ , books, books, books, were everywhere!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WEee~
Hehehe. I bought 4 books and a manga. The manga only cost me $1. WOW!!! [Before: $3.90, second hand book]. It seems Lady Lucky has shine upon me for i uncovered, "Mine to Possess" By Nalini Singh for $4!!! WOW!! *Hugs the book* My favourite series. :}
Got to hurry if you are planning to go there, cause it ends on 29 Nov 09. I saw two Planet Ladder vol 4 mangas there too.
Extra: The moon shines brightly on the cloak of Night.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009;9:14 PM
Big Bookshop PTE LTD
I was wandering around the Clementi Mrt station when i found the Big Bookshop PTE LTD
The address is :
( First one)They sell books and stationary. There was some ongoing offers on selected books when i was there. It was very big, bigger than West Mall's Popular, i think. But the store consists mainly of stationary: files ( plenty), pens, photo albums, sketch books, fullscapes, envelopes etc.
You can go there for your school stationary.
Enjoy,
Ed
Tuesday, November 24, 2009;7:33 AM
My morning is the afternoon. My afternoon is the evening. And my night is the night.
It appears my sense of time is a bit disorientated. . . . Well of course it is, i sleep late, i wake late. And all i did this month was just me lazing about the couch, with the occasional outing.
. . .
*sigh* Well, December is the time for agony. . .For me anyway. I have to study, to prepare for next year. -__- So not in the mood right now. *sigh*
I saw the ad. Ninja Assassin is M18... WTF!!! Damn it! Puts a damper on my mood......
But at least i can see Mulan
if it didn't change the 'Rating to be advised' sign.....Labels: Feelings
Sunday, November 22, 2009;6:15 AM
MPH sale
Bought 12 books, including manga. 
I think i'll be home for the next week, at least. :D
I think i'll be home for the next week, at least. :D
Here are the pictures of the books:
Me think me in heaven. ~_~
Friday, November 20, 2009;7:58 AM
Pizza
I feel like eating pizza. The cheese one. Cheese-ooze-out-when-i-bite-into-it type of pizza.
.
..
.
It's midnight. And i'm hungry. . . .
*sigh*
. . . .
And while i'm at it,I wanna watch
.
Just because Rain's in it . . . . not.
Labels: Feelings
Thursday, November 19, 2009;9:45 PM
What i want for Christmas.
I'll be shameless a bit and ask you to give me any of the things below for Christmas. Of course it's your choice whether or not you will accept but. . . .
:)
All i want for Christmas is. . .
Blaze of Memory by Nalini Singh
Any voulme of 'W Juliet' manga by Emura
By Christy ReeceAhh, that's all for now. For the books, anyway.
Labels: Feelings
;9:29 PM
It's raining again. Maybe the rain will flood the drains beside my house again, just like yesterday.
It's cold too. Especially at night when the temperatures seems to decrease.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009;3:04 AM
I was told i had no social life whatso ever.
.
.
.
.
Just because i don't go out every single day does not mean i have no social life. So what if i stayed at home reading books? It's none of your problem right! And i do go out.
ARRRRRRRRGGGGGG!!!!! SUCH AN INSENSITIVE A**HOLE!!!
Monday, November 16, 2009;1:15 AM
Goodbye, 3E2
It's the time to say goodbye again. *sigh* So fast one year already.
So, farewell, my sec 3 classmates.
Farewell.
Labels: taking photos
Saturday, November 14, 2009;7:14 AM
Christmas
It's just November and already there are lightups prepared for Christmas, the time for sharing and giving gifts. >__<
Below are some photos i took:
Taken in Orchard Centre (It's slanted to the left). *whisper* It's the walls. *whisper*The shoppong centre is very pretty, especially when you go to one of the highest floor. You can smell the *breathe in* ahh, very fresh air. And when you look down . . . :D
While walking towards Plaza Singapura,
Near Isetan (?)And inside Plaza Singapura,
That's all for now. Will take more next time.
Bye bye,
Ed
Monday, November 9, 2009;12:41 AM
Food
For the last past 2 hours, i was busy making ... cookies (can you call them that?) while listening to my MP3
And. . . (Drumroll, please)
Here's my creation!!
And before you say anything, it's edible (me and my bro are still alive. ... for now anyway) and the black colour thingy is melted choco. Plus some of them has fillings which are: tomato and onion.
Now waiting for my mom and dad to come back and eat them.
But it seems my dad can't cause it's hard :O
And this is only my second time at making pastry!
And. . . (Drumroll, please)
Here's my creation!!
And before you say anything, it's edible (me and my bro are still alive. ... for now anyway) and the black colour thingy is melted choco. Plus some of them has fillings which are: tomato and onion.
Now waiting for my mom and dad to come back and eat them.
But it seems my dad can't cause it's hard :O
And this is only my second time at making pastry!
My first was :
(Being baked)
FIRST CREATION EVER!!!Filling was: Onion + Chili+ Tomato.
Now will spend my time playing games Hehehe.
See ya!
Ed
Labels: memories
Sunday, November 8, 2009;6:00 AM
Hehehe. I know i shouldn't laugh but man, i'm waiting for next Feb to see my brother bald cause he's going to NS next year.
*Grin* I'm so~ going to take a photo of him next year. :D Seems he's a bit panicky about losing his hair now :)))))
Labels: Feelings
Sunday, November 1, 2009;4:46 AM
Another year comes and goes.
Next year will be my O level. Next year i will be in Sec 4.
The times i spent studying and chatting with friends this year slowly becomes just fragments of my life. Never talk about it, never remember.
Sometimes the things you promised you never forget will just be like snow in spring. Melted, until there is no evidence of it being there.
I wonder if i would forget how i lived my life this year. If i looked back 20 years from now will i still remember the times when i laughed with my secondary school friends? Will i still remember their faces?
Labels: Favourite Moments, Feelings, memories, Time
